Faith Over Fear

I just quit my job. The one I’ve been cozy and comfortable at for the past two years. Although cozy and comfortable, I was also downright miserable. It was one of those feelings where I felt amazing all morning and when it was time to go to work, it felt like all of my energy was sucked right out of me. I was drained. I didn’t have time to give my business the full attention it deserved and when I did have time off, my energy was in the wrong place. I didn’t feel like the trailblazer I once was. I honestly felt like a failure… mostly in part because this is what I help people with every single day. I help them break out of their comfort zones and live their life fearlessly especially when it comes to the pursuit of their dreams.

 

Why was I struggling with this so much in my own life?

 

Well… after another moment of feeling waked all over, I decided I had enough. For the first time in two years, I stood up for myself. I went into work the next day and the first thing I did was give my two weeks. I’m still surprised I did this. For those of you know me well, I’m a super-planner. I rarely make impulse decisions and always have a plan. ALWAYS. This time, I didn’t. I just leapt and put my faith in the universe.

I was trying to think of the last time I made a decision like this, and realized it had been exactly two years since the day I decided to embark on my New York City journey. The two situations are very similar. No plan. No back-up. Just lots of big jumps and faith. Damn, does it feel good after! You put yourself to the ultimate test and come out on top (of the world).

Anyways, back to my story. Now, I needed to come up with a plan. I applied everywhere. I started by applying to places I knew I was over-qualified for first, because I thought it’d be a sure thing. I was wrong. None of these places hired me. As I was interviewing for one of those places, the woman interviewing me said, “I think you’d be good here, but I think you’d be great at one of our other locations.” I was in shock. This other location was something I’ve never experienced before, everything was brand new and definitely a step above where I was. Let’s just say there would be a huge learning curve. She hired me on the spot and wanted me to come in to train the next day.

I got my trail-blazer spark back upon quitting my previous job, so I said, “Why not? I’ll take on the challenge.” (This didn’t mean I wasn’t nervous as hell, I definitely was!!!) I started training and fell in love with the company, the culture, the staff, everything! And the best part about it was that I have more time to focus  on my business and I got a pay increase. I think that qualifies for wins in all areas!

The point of this story is to 1. show you that we are all continuous works in progress and 2. trust that the universe has your back; faith will act like the wind beneath your wings. Fear is the #1 reason why people stay where they are. That’s definitely what kept me in that miserable state for so long. Once I decided that I had enough, I fed faith instead of fear and look at where it got me? I found something even better than I had before. I have my trail-blazer spark back, I’m fully engaged in my business AND  I’m writing again. You’ll always know something is up when I’m not writing. This is my first real blog post in who knows how long. I’m ready to serve you, my peeps, in every way that I can and I’m so excited for all of the amazing things happening this month. Stay tuned 🙂

 

Xo,

Lauren